What a long summer it has been. I've returned from the desert and am back in Vancouver for a night before heading home for a bit! I was in Bend, OR for a couple of weeks, watching my teammates race the Cascade Classic while I prepared for U23 Nationals. It was definitely tough to watch such a great race without being able to participate, but I just couldn't risk being too tired to win a jersey.
The short version of the road race: 192 km, brutal course, 100+ degree heat, melting pavement. Needless to say, the field of 140 riders was quickly diminishing, and by 60 km there were about 60 guys left. Unfortunately that is when one of them decided to dive inside of my handlebars through a round-a-bout, putting me into the bushes and ending my race. Coincidentally, my teammate Carson crashed on the same corner just 1 lap later. He went down when his front wheel dug into the melting, 130 degree road. His crash eventually ended his racing for the rest of the week, a pretty devastating blow.
The only good thing about the time trial 2 days later is that Pierre from Nike got some good shots for his documentary on the team. He does all of the promotional video work with Nike athletes(i.e. commercials). Other than that, it was a pretty terrible day. It started when I put my disc wheel on and realized that I could only shift into the 13 because my cable/housing was frayed. With only 20 minutes left before my start, I was pretty much freaking out. Fortunately the Shimano mechanic was amazing and was able to replace everything and get it working perfectly in about 10 minutes. Within of first 5 minutes of the race I knew something was wrong when I couldn't control my breathing. I backed off the pace a little bit, but was still completely anaerobic. I eventually came out of the aero bars for extended periods, as my heart rate was so high that I was having pretty bad chest pains. This continued for the rest of the 48 minute time trial, and it was obviously not the ride that I had planned on having as I crossed the line in 17th.
After going over everything in my head a million times and discussing it with my coach, I realized that I had had an anxiety attack. When I race time trials, even local ones, my heart rate averages 196 bpm for the entire race(abnormally high). After placing 2nd in last years TT nationals, I was putting a lot of pressure on myself to better my performance this year. Between that pressure, lots of caffiene, adrenaline, cable problems, and me purposely trying to psyche myself up, my heart was racing. Even when I was out of the aero bars my heart rate was well over 203 bpm, and I started to hyperventilate. I definitely learned something from this race, and now know that being too pumped up can actually be a bad thing for me!
Two days of depression followed my TT performance, but I tried to stay focused on the criterium. I went into the race totally calm, with no expectations for myself and nothing on my mind other than riding in circles. The course was shortened to just 1 km, so I knew that teams like Garmin and Trek-Livestrong would try for a breakaway to lap the field. I attacked with Alex Howes(Garmin), Danny Summerhill(Garmin) and Bjorn Selander(Trek-Livestrong) just 1 lap into the 60 lap race. We quickly gained 10 seconds, at which point Garmin decided to send Summerhill back to the peloton. The three of us worked well together and the gap grew to 25 seconds. At this rate I figured we would lap the field within 30 minutes and then go from there, but that wasn't the case. Our gap ranged from 15-25 seconds throughout the entire race, and we were full gas the whole time. With 3 laps to go it was down to 12 seconds. I took my turn at the front and rotated off just as Selander attacked up the opposite side of the road. Howes jumped on his wheel and I was able to come back as well. We continued to rotate with 2 to go, the gap still at 12 seconds. I pulled off the front and was attacked once again, but this time by Howes. I waited for Selander to come off my wheel and go after him but it didn't happen. Howes had a 10m advantage, and Selander jumped. I got on his wheel, waited 10 seconds, and then made a last effort bid to get across to Howes. With a half lap remaining it was Howes off the front, me 10m behind him, Selander 10m behind me, and the field closing fast. We all rode to the finish completely maxed out, and I just didn't have what it took to bring him back, crossing the line for 2nd.
Don't get me wrong, I was happy with 2nd, but it wasn't what I was there for. I wanted that jersey more than anything, and to come so close for the second year in a row was pretty heart breaking. Following the podium was a 2 hour wait with USADA while I tried to go to the bathroom. When I was finally able to, the guy was pretty shocked at the specific gravity of my urine(they check to make sure it is within an acceptable range for testing). It was the highest he had seen all week, meaning I was the most dehydrated rider out there. I'm not sure how that happened, as I consciously carried a bottle with me at all times and tried to drink as much as possible.
Pierre was at the crit as well, and got some cool video from the race as well as some interviews with us. He will be with us at the Tour of Utah and I'm excited to see the final product.
I'm heading home tomorrow morning before going out to Salt Lake City on the 16th. The best part is that the last stage of Utah is on the 23rd, and I have school beginning on the morning of the 24th. That should be fun!
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